AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: Yes, I still blog here DATE: 3/03/2010 08:46:00 AM ----- BODY:
Gratuitous picture of my beautiful boys. Bird always wants to hold Squeak. It's sweet and a little dangerous all at the same time. He's going to love his little brother to death if we don't watch out.

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Remember that last post? The one with the bullets? With this bullet in particular?
Yeah. The next day, I couldn't walk without help. We headed to the urgent care and found out that I had a nasty case of shingles.

Fair. Not. All that work to be back up and going right after Squeak's birth was hosed. I was down for the count for at least a week and have just now, almost 3 weeks later, gotten back to being able to handle a normal day of activity without my leg crying out in pain at the end of the day. The not very creative way to put it is that it completely sucked.

The salt in the proverbial wound is that my leg, which is currently one of two parts of my body that aren't pudgy (the other being my wrists), and is my husband's favorite part of me, is pretty scarred up now. I'm not sure if it's going to go away. I suppose only time will tell. I hope so, but I'll take the scars over the pain any day.

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This morning, Squeak and I are headed to our La Leche League meeting. Poor Bird is sick again, so he's staying home with his daddy. Bird had to be picked up from preschool yesterday, and by 5:00 this morning, I had him in a lukewarm bath trying to get his fever of 104 to break. He's better this morning, but I'm grateful that Kevin stayed home to help. Yesterday was not easy.

Anyway, I've been thinking about La Leche League and wondering if I might want to become a leader. In theory, I would love to. I'm just not sure that I'm "LLL enough" to be a leader. I'm pretty moderate in my parenting philosophies if you were to average them out. As in, we vaccinate on schedule for the most part, but an artificial nipple will not touch Squeak's lips. As in, we co-sleep until the baby is ready to move, but eventually we are going to do some sleep training if we need to. Basically, we do what works for our family, and at the end of the day, I think that might be "LLL enough," but I'm not sure.

I really believe though, that moms need support and encouragement to breastfeed successfully. If that is something I could do, I think I would like to. I'm a little fearful of the commitment also. Sound wishy washy? Yeah. I know.

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It's March, and I haven't written about Bird's second birthday. So many people just flat out ignored his birthday this year. I wasn't one of them, but I didn't do as much as I would have liked. But it hurt my feelings for him - being ignored for your birthday is rotten, even if you are only 2 and don't realize it yet. Hurts my mama heart.

That's all I'll say about that now. He deserves a full post for his big 2 year old day.

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Amazingly, I got to type all of this in one sitting and didn't have to hold any children while doing so. If I don't stop now, that will no longer be true. So I end here, with way too much left to say, and a severe lack of editing in this wad of words. My apologies.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Amy DATE:Wednesday, March 3, 2010 at 10:24:00 AM EST Every LLL meeting I went to started with the leaders discussing that you hear many ideas but not all of them will work for your family. The goal is to do what works for you.

I think you'd be a GREAT leader. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Magpie DATE:Wednesday, March 3, 2010 at 12:44:00 PM EST Shingles sucks! I had it when my kid was about seven months old. I hope you're feeling better. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Mem DATE:Wednesday, March 3, 2010 at 6:53:00 PM EST you are exactly LLL enough! im not so LLL, well i'm more LLL now that i am a leader than when i was becoming one... BUT there are 12 guide lines that you have to believe in... they are really generalized and broad. one of the first parts of the process is to say- yes i believe the breast is best, here is why. and so on and so forth with the guide lines. go to an LA meeting and check it out- if i ever give birth i'll even go with you! i have an applicant right now so i'm on the up and up of requirements. you would make a great leader- fyi. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Bren DATE:Thursday, March 4, 2010 at 1:51:00 PM EST You don't need to apologize at the end of your post! You have a newborn, a two-year-old, and are recovering from shingles which plainly said - suck! I didn't know of blogs when my kids were little, but lets just say I wouldn't have had the energy or creative juices to write at this stage. And I didn't have shingles. So hats off to you. Good to read how your family is doing. Thanks for sharing. Take care.

BTW, I am the Queen of Wishy Washy and I think it's great you want to be an LLL leader. I'm all for doing whatever works best for each family and calling that good. So you would have been great for me as that would have been exactly the type of person I would have wanted to talk to. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous whymommy DATE:Sunday, March 7, 2010 at 1:14:00 PM EST You're a good mom.

Remember that. 'k?

It's enough. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous clifford DATE:Tuesday, March 9, 2010 at 1:12:00 PM EST Whoever makes the rubber-bouncy case thingie for iPhones could make one for babies. Problem solved. And potentially^X^X^X^X^X^X^X^X^X^X absolutely entertaining. ----- --------