AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape
TITLE: And the waiting starts again
DATE: 10/09/2007 11:30:00 AM
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When a mother has cancer, her first thought is of her children. The days that it gets hard and she gets tired, then she also has to face the guilt stemming from knowing that if she is gone, it will be harder on her children than on her. The days when she wants to be sad about the hand she has been dealt, she has to find some happiness to share with her children.
When she calls you to tell you that her CA125 levels are back up to where they were before the last battle, and we may be looking at a break in this miraculous remission from ovarian cancer, she doesn't cry. She doesn't complain.
She asks, "Are you alright?"
Always a momma. No matter how old her children are.
Momma's take on it is here. Of course we are hoping that the numbers will come back down and not continue climbing. All we can do is wait and see.Labels: Cancer, Momma
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: katy
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 1:36:00 PM EDT
I HATE cancer. So many people living lives, waiting on it, never sure if it will come back. So many people who couldn't get rid of it the first time.....
Why can no one figure it out, stop it in it's tracks, fight back for those who are tired of fighting?
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR:
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 1:42:00 PM EDT
You have a strong momma! I wish you both the strength to battle again. I know I become the scared kid whenever I wait for my mom's CA125's, too. No matter how old I am, she is the momma and I am the kid.
Constance, NMD
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Kevin Charnas
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 1:58:00 PM EDT
I'm sending you and your Momma my good-filled thoughts and prayers. And hoping beyond hope that it all is okay.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR:
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 3:25:00 PM EDT
I lost my Dad to it 8 years ago. Waiting really sucks. Know that you and your wonderful Mom are in my prayers. xoxo
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Candygirlflies
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 3:46:00 PM EDT
Canape, hoping and praying for you and your family!! Love, as always, CGF xo
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR:
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 3:51:00 PM EDT
Hugs to you. Sending lots of falling number vibes to your mama right now.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Jennifer, Playgroups Are No Place For Children
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 3:55:00 PM EDT
You captured what a Momma does beautifully. Prayers for you and YOUR Momma.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: MamaGeek @ Works For Us
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 4:08:00 PM EDT
Speechless. I can identify with you and your beautiful Momma. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Stella
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 4:36:00 PM EDT
Thinking of you and your momma and praying that those numbers go back down!!
I second Katy, I HATE cancer!
Alison
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: PunditMom
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 5:03:00 PM EDT
I'm so sorry. I hate cancer, too. Much, too much cancer.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: slouchy
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 5:03:00 PM EDT
I'm so sorry. Your momma is strong, and she is a momma, all right. I will be thinking about her and hoping that this is just a fluke.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR:
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 6:37:00 PM EDT
Oh damn - stupid other shoe dropping. My thoughts are with you and your family. If remission happened once, it can happen again.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Stimey
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 7:04:00 PM EDT
I'll be thinking of you and your mom. I'm sorry to hear this news.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: The Farm House Kids
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 9:12:00 PM EDT
I'll be praying that her numbers no longer rise and that she is earthly healed. I know it's easy for me to say, 'hang in there' and hard for you to do. I know it's on your mind, but for all it's worth ... take care and pray that she'll be okay.
Tanya
The Dairy Wife
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Clifford
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 9:19:00 PM EDT
All that was said above and more of it. I raise my iced tea, slightly-sweetened & no lemon, to Mrs. S's good health.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR:
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 10:36:00 PM EDT
All the love and hugs and prayers you sent my way today? Coming right back at you.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Ally
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 11:06:00 PM EDT
Pass on all this love to your Mama and let her know we're all praying for her, out here in the internets.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Ally
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 11:11:00 PM EDT
Wow, I just stopped by your mama's blog page. You have one great mama! But I suspect you already knew that.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Bubblewench
DATE:Wednesday, October 10, 2007 at 6:35:00 AM EDT
You know how much I adore your mother. I will be thinking of her and praying for her.
I will be thinking of you too. :)
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Liz
DATE:Wednesday, October 10, 2007 at 8:01:00 AM EDT
aaaaw crap!
sending love and hugs and prayers to both you and your amazing momma.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Nancy
DATE:Wednesday, October 10, 2007 at 9:38:00 AM EDT
Oh, Canape. I'm thinking of you and your Momma and wishing all the best for you both as you wait...
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Bon
DATE:Wednesday, October 10, 2007 at 6:49:00 PM EDT
you said it so well...or rather, your Momma did.
love to you, and Momma, and Little Bird.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: gail
DATE:Wednesday, October 10, 2007 at 7:32:00 PM EDT
And we'll wait with you. Your Momma rocks my crocs.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Mrs. Chicken
DATE:Thursday, October 11, 2007 at 12:15:00 AM EDT
Oh how I hated these tests. Hated them, and the unreliable numbers. I am praying for you and your mom and your wee birdy.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Becki
DATE:Thursday, October 11, 2007 at 5:48:00 PM EDT
Cancer sucks.
Hope good news comes again soon.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Space Mom
DATE:Wednesday, October 17, 2007 at 11:03:00 AM EDT
I am so sorry this has started again....
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katy
DATE:Tuesday, October 9, 2007 at 1:36:00 PM EDT
I HATE cancer. So many people living lives, waiting on it, never sure if it will come back. So many people who couldn't get rid of it the first time.....