AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: Life preservers DATE: 7/12/2007 08:53:00 AM ----- BODY:
It's almost 9:00 AM. That means Whymommy has been actively fighting cancer for almost 30 minutes now. Her first chemo treatment started at 8:30 this morning. That. Is the most important thing happening today. If you haven't yet, please stop by and leave her a cheer.


Today is Cleatus the Featus' due date. Last night, as I was giving Guy a much deserved back rub, he asked me what I needed for today. The answered surprised both him and me.


Are you sure? He wanted to know. Flowers? Do you need to go out to dinner?

"No. It's going to be fine."

And it is fine.

There is this little ache in the center of my chest in the spot where Cleatus always tugs. I know especially today that it will be there, and so today, when he tugs as my heart, I will just say "hello," and "I miss you too."

Guy told me that he knew I was sad, and that he was glad that it wasn't the drowning sad. I am glad too. I have a lot of life preservers though. Andria and Girl have both wrapped their internet arms around me. And Bach. Sweet wonderful Bach arrived with flowers in hand this week and reminded me that she is sorry she didn't get to meet him too. And I couldn't thank her properly in person because I didn't want to cry right then.

Little life preservers.

Andria is right. This is not just any other day.

But I will be okay. Me and Little Bird will sing a song to Cleatus, and then, we will get back to the healing and the hope.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous AcadeMama DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 10:32:00 AM EDT Sending {{hugs}} to you as you remember Cleatus and are hopeful for Bird's future :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous girl DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 12:50:00 PM EDT I know you already know but we are thinking about you, with smiles :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Bon DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 1:36:00 PM EDT just adding a little note to the chorus of Cleatus' song...saying hey.

and i can't help but notice the congruence of dates...much as i don't claim to make any coherent meaning out of them. hoping that some of the life and love and what this date should have been for you carries over to offer the same to, love, a new beginning.

i don't know if that makes any sense. but i'm thinking of you and your friend today, both of you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Tiffany DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 5:21:00 PM EDT Thinking of you today and so encouraged that you're feeling hope. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Mamma DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 5:32:00 PM EDT I'm so impressed by how far you've come. So glad.

WhyMommy has us all, just like you did and do. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous WhyMommy DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 7:37:00 PM EDT Love you, Canape. You, and Guy, and Lovely, and Cleatus and his new brother or sister.

This day ... now has baggage. But it will get better in years to come. And when we are old women, we will clink glasses of wine to toast the bittersweetness that is July 12 for both of us. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Jessica DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 8:55:00 PM EDT I'm glad that you only needed a little life preserver today... It's amazing what a little time will do. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Bach DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 9:37:00 PM EDT I've been thinking about you and Cleatus today. Your little fella will always be remembered and missed, so don't forget that.

Sending love.
BACH ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Ally DATE:Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 11:02:00 PM EDT Oh my, what a hard day. I'm sending you my hugs as well. I hope you can feel them. Try to ignore my soft squishy middle. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous slouchy DATE:Friday, July 13, 2007 at 7:23:00 AM EDT Hugs and all manner of support from me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Liz DATE:Monday, July 23, 2007 at 10:27:00 PM EDT Love, darling. Nothing but love for you.
Belated, maybe. But heartfelt nonetheless. ----- --------