AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: Another Day DATE: 11/24/2008 11:05:00 AM ----- BODY:

I still come here and sit quietly. I walk through the pages feeling the chill of a home that has been locked up tight with sheets over the furniture, curtains drawn, and the heat turned down low.

There are emails that sit unanswered. Questions of how I am, what I'm doing, how is the baby. I don't respond.

There are friends I haven't visited. Comments left untyped. My silence has extended from this space into your spaces as well.

I miss you.

I miss this space.

It has been over two months since I left here. I don't think it was a wrong decision. Contrary to my husband's and Cliff's opinions, I don't think it was a defeated decision. It was simply what I felt was right. To say that I was "defeated" means that I was in battle with someone, which is absolutely not the case.

Closing down gave me the distance needed to figure out why I do this in the first place and consider if it is important enough to me to allow access to everyone.

Even people who need restraining orders taken out against them to learn some boundaries.

The answer, obviously, is yes. Yes, it is that important to me. I miss you, and I miss this space. When I visit your blogs now, I feel like the guest that shows up at your house and never a cake or a bottle of wine.

You've missed so much. I've missed recording so much. There is dancing and cruising across furniture. There are five teeth and first words. There is so much joy.

I'm sorry to have vanished like I did.

For all of those who said goodbye, and I am so grateful for all of the comments - I had no idea there were so many of you out there reading - for all of the goodbyes, I hope that you don't mind saying hello again.

I guess that made my previous post an interrupted cadence. A V-vi if you will.

Of course, this is what you've really missed - some pictures of the big guy.

Labels: Bird, Blogging Innards, Gratitude, My Life, Warm Fuzzies

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Stella DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 6:27:00 PM EST I so hope this means you're back!!!

I love the pictures...he looks GREAT!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Michelle Lynn DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 6:31:00 PM EST Welcome back. You were missed. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

gail DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 6:50:00 PM EST welcome back ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Nita DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 6:52:00 PM EST Welcome Back. I missed you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Daily Verses DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 7:21:00 PM EST Yay! :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Susie DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 7:38:00 PM EST I was hoping - with those hints you dropped here and there... Yay! So nice to have you home:) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

nikki DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 8:27:00 PM EST Welcome back, Marty - glad I'm along for the ride this time. :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

FishyGirl DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 8:47:00 PM EST Oh, yay, you're back! He's gotten so big. And adorable. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Two Lines On a Stick DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 8:56:00 PM EST So glad you are back!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Becki DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 9:24:00 PM EST Awesome!! Welcome back :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Kelly DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 9:27:00 PM EST Yay! I'm so glad you are back!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

No Minimom DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 9:42:00 PM EST Gorgeous Gerber baby! Glad to see you back! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

@sweetbabboo DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 9:55:00 PM EST Yay! You were missed. Welcome home. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Jessica DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 10:10:00 PM EST Welcome HOME Momma... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

K DATE:Monday, November 24, 2008 at 11:51:00 PM EST I've kept you on my bloglines in the hope that maybe - just maybe -
So glad to see you and your adorable little guy! :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Amy DATE:Tuesday, November 25, 2008 at 6:59:00 AM EST YES YES YES!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Bubblewench DATE:Tuesday, November 25, 2008 at 1:54:00 PM EST Love and hugs to you. You have been missed. Great photos. You made me cry. Again. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Rachel DATE:Tuesday, November 25, 2008 at 5:36:00 PM EST I am so happy you are here. You never left my bloglines for a moment! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Bobbie DATE:Tuesday, November 25, 2008 at 6:45:00 PM EST Welcome back! Bird looks more than two months older! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Fancy Pants DATE:Tuesday, November 25, 2008 at 9:56:00 PM EST Maybe this will stop the whining. Go Shamoopie go. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Anonymous DATE:Wednesday, November 26, 2008 at 12:04:00 PM EST I am glad you are back!! The baby is beautiful!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Candygirlflies DATE:Saturday, November 29, 2008 at 9:06:00 AM EST YOU'RE BACK!!!

I've missed you so...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

CGF

ps. your boys are gorgeous, as are you, my friend. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Jennifer, Playgroups Are No Place For Children DATE:Saturday, November 29, 2008 at 10:13:00 PM EST Nice to see you back. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Jeanine DATE:Sunday, November 30, 2008 at 7:03:00 AM EST Ooooooh welcome back!!!!! I am so glad you are back! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Clifford DATE:Monday, December 1, 2008 at 6:26:00 PM EST Asses kicked. Names taken. Hall passes revoked. Welcome back M! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

spacemom DATE:Wednesday, December 3, 2008 at 2:06:00 PM EST welcome back! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

J from Ireland DATE:Tuesday, December 9, 2008 at 8:20:00 PM EST So glad your back. Your boy is just gorgeous, absolutly delicious. ----- --------