AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: The Sleep Wall DATE: 1/23/2009 09:33:00 PM ----- BODY:
I have hit the sleep wall. Something is up with Little Bird, and the sleep is not there.

After three nights of newborn like not with the sleeping, I was completely on edge Wednesday. My voice was drowning in the exhaustion I had been wading through the first part of the week.

The problem is, once I get that tired, it's harder and harder to fall asleep. My head hits the pillow and all I can do is think about how if I go to sleep the baby is going to wake up in five minutes. I lay in the bed thinking that it would just be easier to stay awake.

So I do. I am awake. Staring. Breathing. Anxious. Wiped out. When I do drift away, I find myself locked in dreams playing out my nervousness in made up battles from places in my brain I never visit.

Pills to sleep make me feel squishy inside. I don't like them, but I've swallowed them like a good girl. And now I pray for sleep. For me and my Little Bird.

After all, we have a birthday party to throw for a sweet little boy who turns 363 days old tomorrow. There will be pictures, and I also have pictures of him as a Little Snow Bird. Soon. After sleep.

Nighty night.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous myrelish DATE:Saturday, January 24, 2009 at 5:45:00 AM EST Good night. I hope you can get enough sleep to allow you to celebrate this fantastic milestone. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Beautifully Unique DATE:Sunday, January 25, 2009 at 1:18:00 AM EST There must be something in the air with these kiddos. Sister hasn't been sleeping either and I'm exhausted. Hope you get some sleep and have a GREAT party! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous WhyMommy DATE:Sunday, January 25, 2009 at 11:00:00 AM EST G'night. hope you got some good rest this weekend.... ----- --------