AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: My boys DATE: 8/27/2009 10:05:00 PM ----- BODY:
Dear Little Bean,

I think you need a new name. I'm not sure what it's going to be yet, but Butterbean just doesn't fit you. You, the kicking, twisting, must be made known, you.

You actually do have a new name. As of today, we know what we will call you when you are born because we know that you are a boy. Oh boy, do we know you are a boy.

The ultrasound tech didn't have that wand on my tummy for more that 5 seconds when you mooned us, threw your legs open, and showed us all of your glory. She didn't have to tell us what you were; I started laughing and said, "Is that what I think it is?" And it was. My little exhibitionist.

I guess it's safe to say now how very much I wanted you to be a boy. There are both pragmatic and emotional reasons involved. The pragmatic is obvious: I already have all the clothes you need in the proper season. Score.

The emotional reasons are a little more complicated. One reason is that I didn't want for your big sister to feel like she was being replaced with a new little girl. Maybe she wouldn't have. She's pretty amazing, and I think - I hope - that she is secure in how much she is loved. But I'm glad for that reason.

Also, knowing that you are a little boy reassures me that I know what to do with you. While I know that you won't come out just a carbon copy of your big brother, I feel like I know how to love a little boy and take care of a little boy. That might never make sense to you, since you won't ever be somebody's mama, but it makes sense to me.

My heart melts when I think about "my boys" now. I love saying it. I love finding reasons to say it. I can't wait until you get here and I get to say, "Today, me and the boys . . . " which is of course terrible grammar, but I love the way it sounds.

My boys. My boys.

My heart.

I am so in for it.

Love,
Your Mama

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous No Minimom DATE:Thursday, August 27, 2009 at 11:35:00 PM EDT Yay! Welcome to the moms of 2 boys club. :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Jill DATE:Friday, August 28, 2009 at 12:16:00 AM EDT Oh lordy lordy lordy, I'm tearing up over this. I felt the same way when I found out my 2nd was a boy. I loved (and still love) the idea of "my boys." I was born to be the mom of boys, these two boys in particular and it sounds like you're a member of that club too! congrats! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Kelly DATE:Friday, August 28, 2009 at 9:06:00 AM EDT That made me tear up too. Having 2 (or 4, lol) boys is so much fun!! Congrats again!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Daily Verses DATE:Friday, August 28, 2009 at 10:07:00 AM EDT How sweet! Your sensitivity for Lovely is so beautiful. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Lizzy DATE:Friday, August 28, 2009 at 10:46:00 AM EDT you are so outnumbered!

congratulations! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous whymommy DATE:Saturday, August 29, 2009 at 12:18:00 AM EDT Oh, yeah.

My boys, indeed. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Convertible Girl DATE:Saturday, August 29, 2009 at 9:54:00 PM EDT Hooray for boys!

I totally get the idea of "my boys." Was so sure Pippi was a boy -- when we found out otherwise, we didn't even tell our families for over a week. Really thought I was a boy mama. Guess she's going to prove me wrong -- glad you'll be close by to help me through it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Susie DATE:Sunday, August 30, 2009 at 8:29:00 PM EDT Oh, it makes me perfect sense to me too :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous the new girl DATE:Tuesday, September 1, 2009 at 9:38:00 PM EDT Wow.

Awesome.

Does it feel like it's going fast, Marty? It seems like it's going faaaast to me... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Bubblewench DATE:Tuesday, September 8, 2009 at 1:04:00 PM EDT my heart melts 'hearing' you say "My boys!" ----- --------