AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: One step forward . . . DATE: 2/28/2007 10:32:00 PM ----- BODY:
I did go to therapy. I'm hesitant to write about it, because I still think the most time efficient thing to happen is to just send her here, have her read, and then wave a magic wand to cure me.

Maybe I should just have business cards made:

"Think you want to listen to me? Go to "Don't Take the Repeats" and have a sample first. Judge for yourself, and then get back to me."

I will say that she is the skinniest woman I have ever seen in person. The kind of skinny you don't envy and wonder if she is alright. I mean, I would hate to get attached to a therapist who might kick off next week from some illness or malnutrition.

See, that is the wine typing. I shouldn't say that. But I have a dedication to the "non-edit." Leave the words where they fall. Propriety be damned. If I do give her this link, I reserve the right to delete these two paragraphs immediately.

Tonight I emailed Babes in Blogland and asked them to add me to the TTC list. I didn't want to be on the TTC list. I wanted to be on the Expecting in November list. However, in all honesty, I'm on the TTC list. I have had a "normal" period. Now I have had my round of "BFN's." So I'm officially TTC.

Trying to conceive.

For those of you that don't have to look me in the eye, that means:

Guy and I do it like rabbits. We chart my temps. We look at my cervical fluid. We try to time the vast number of moments when we want to jump each other into the "fertile window."

Can I just say that calling it the "fertile window" in itself throws a damper on things???

Bowm, chicka mawh mawh, wanna jump through the fertile window? I'll suck in my gut for you!

Trying to conceive.

Yippee.

But, since I have not sent a proper note, I have to take the time to thank the Babes in Blogland folks. Most of you happened over this way because they let you know about my miscarriage. They let you knowI needed you at a time when I still didn't even understand much about the blogosphere. I was just typing my raw pain into the computer and hitting "publish".

The people they sent this way completely saved me. You know who you are. And just in case you don't, Jen, you are the first to come "out of the blue" and throw me a line. I love you for that, and I will never forget it. Thank you. TTC. That's us. Let's ride it out together.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Jen DATE:Thursday, March 1, 2007 at 1:03:00 AM EST No one makes me cry the big fat tears like you do. And I mean that in a good way :) Every time I read your posts they reach my heart and it swells right up. I'm glad I was able to be there for you in some small way while your own heart was breaking, I wished I could reach through this screen and hug you 'til it all went away. If only there was an end right? Agh.

TTC. Together. You and Me Girl.

ps - can you explain the name of your blog to me, I'm sure its referencing something really obvious but for the life of me, I can't figure it out...! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Jen DATE:Thursday, March 1, 2007 at 1:07:00 AM EST oh, and the "fertile window" thing... so with you there too! It SUCKS!!! Nothing is less romantic than, "honey I've got some amazing eggwhite mucus right now, you have to take me now... oh, wait, i just checked my cervix and its still low, nevermind, hold off, tomorrow ok? i don't want to use up all the good sperm."

yeah. he loves it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Lizzy DATE:Thursday, March 1, 2007 at 9:24:00 AM EST good for you for going to see the therapist. the first visit is the hardest and worst, in my (seasoned) opinion.
sending good fertile window vibes out there for you. wish i could do more... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Marty, a.k.a. canape DATE:Thursday, March 1, 2007 at 2:44:00 PM EST Sure thing. I'll tell all about the name, and the silly nickname. It will give me something to post about :) ----- --------