AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: Obsession DATE: 2/19/2007 12:42:00 PM ----- BODY:
Since this seems to be the place where I tell all, complete honesty, warts and all, here goes. I peed on a stick this morning. I was supposed to wait until Saturday, but the box came with a free one, so I thought, "What the hell?"

It was negative.

I have been charting and temping and graphing and all the things I'm supposed to, so I knew it was too early. However, my moods have been totally like they were in October. Snarky. I couldn't find that on the list of options on Fertility Friend though. So I just entered "bad."

So here is the chart. And those of you who have to see me face to face, I apologize for this being entirely too much information.

We are still above the coverline, so that is good. I had to take my temp about 90 minutes early though because Lovely was here. She has to leave for school way early and there are breakfasts and lunches to be made.

There are several "symptoms" that make me hopeful for a positive test, but then there is the nagging, "you are just working yourself up for a fall," too.

Last night I had incredibly weird dreams that were really vivid. That hasn't happened since pregnancy.

I'm tired. But that could just be from my lovely mood.

We'll see. Saturday will come soon enough. (HA!)

Saturday I will be 34.

Saturday I hope to have another chance.

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----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Mamma DATE:Monday, February 19, 2007 at 6:32:00 PM EST ((((Honey))))

It's not easy to go through all of this is it?

I'd love to say don't worry about it, to monitor things too closely...you'll get yourself too stressed out. But I know that's way easier said than done.

You probably need to decide why this wouldn't be a good time to get pregnant and then bam! wouldn't it just happen then.

Sucks!! We spend half of our fertile years begging not to get pregnant and then when we want to...

Thinking of you!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous gail DATE:Monday, February 19, 2007 at 9:03:00 PM EST Yes it's a TERRIBLE time to be pregnant, wink wink hint hint. I tested negative three times with Doogal.

I am thinking about you too.... and I love looking at your chart, wanna see mine. LMAO! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous Marty, a.k.a. canape DATE:Monday, February 19, 2007 at 10:59:00 PM EST Loving the e-hugs. Thanks.

And yes. I would love to see charts! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous IzzyMom DATE:Tuesday, February 20, 2007 at 1:21:00 AM EST GOOD LUCK!!!!

:) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous AcadeMama DATE:Tuesday, February 20, 2007 at 3:49:00 PM EST For what it's worth: After being diagnosed with borderline PCOS (not enough female hormones to kick out an egg), and finding out that I hadn't even ovulated for 2 months in a row, my doctor's "talk" left me consigned that not only was I not pregnant, but it might be harder to get pregnant than I'd ever imagined. He prescribed clomid and said to wait until my 5th cylcle day to start taking it. I kept waiting and waiting..spotting the whole time...and getting a negative on several pregnancy tests. One day, as I continued to wonder why I was spotting but hadn't officially "started," I took another test and saw the faint pink line!

The roller coaster of am I/am I not is a hard one to ride (even harder after your experience I'm sure). Hang in there, and I'm sending lots of baby wishes your way. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:Anonymous whymommy DATE:Wednesday, February 21, 2007 at 8:58:00 PM EST Eet is way too early to be testing, my dear.... Remember the charting rule -- if you're above the coverline for 19 days, you're pregnant! Sticks between now and then will just make us crazy!

FYI/TMI: I tested negative with Little Bear until the 17th day above the coverline.... ----- --------