AUTHOR: Marty, a.k.a. canape TITLE: And then there's today DATE: 2/23/2007 10:20:00 AM ----- BODY:

Welcome to the place where I feel extremely sorry for myself. You don't have to stay long. Just go on without me, because I'm thinking I'm going to sit here for quite some time.

Yesterday I would have been 20 weeks pregnant.

Today I am going to therapy.

Today I also started my period. A day early. No need to pee on that stick tomorrow morning. At least now I can get totally hammered for my birthday if I see fit.

Do my blog buddies know me well enough yet to see the veil of masking things with inappropriate humor? It's a treasured trait of mine. People love it. It's endearing.

Now I have to go dry my hair and try to squeeze my fat ass into some article of clothing so that I can go meet some of Guy's friends from his old job. For the first time. And have them wonder why on earth he married a fat chick. It's a good thing I did nothing to lose the weight I've gained. Lord knows I need one more thing to whine about.

Pity party at my house. Tonight. Anyone want to come?

Labels: Baby Lust, General Bitching, Grief

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gail DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 10:46:00 AM EST I'm there babe. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Sudiegirl DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 11:27:00 AM EST Hon...I am the queen of gallows humor.

I make fun of my bipolar disorder all the time, and it helps me cope sometimes.

However, therapy is also a good thing to have, for the times when you can't laugh at it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Amy DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 11:44:00 AM EST I'm sooo there! Can I talk about the baby weight I gained even though I was only pregnant for 9 weeks? Yeah, I'm delusional. Oh, and there's also the "post-partum" weight I gained by feeding my misery with chocolate. I feel so pretty. :-) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Oh, The Joys DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 1:40:00 PM EST Hang in there. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Jen DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 3:23:00 PM EST I'm sorry you are feeling so low these days girl; a little dry humour can go a long way on days like this. I can only imagine how hard those milestone dates must be, big hugs to you.

BTW, if it makes you feel better I've still got too many pounds to lose from my pregnancy three years ago. Agh. I know. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

whymommy DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 8:01:00 PM EST Pity party, schmitty party. I'm holding out for birthday cake tomorrow! What kind are you having? Birthday calories DON'T count! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

FENICLE DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 9:07:00 PM EST Everyone has their "pity party table for 1" every once in a while. Enjoy your birthday & when you blow out the candles think of something positive for the upcoming year!!!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

IzzyMom DATE:Friday, February 23, 2007 at 11:13:00 PM EST There's nothing wrong with feeling down about the significance of this day or about getting your period when you were hoping to be pregnant.

{{hugs}} ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Event Coordinators DATE:Saturday, February 24, 2007 at 9:31:00 AM EST I'll bring the shot glass and a bottle of good hooch if you need company.

Take care, my friend. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Mom Ma'am Me DATE:Saturday, February 24, 2007 at 9:33:00 AM EST Oops, that was me... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Anth DATE:Saturday, February 24, 2007 at 1:00:00 PM EST Well bollocks. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Marty, a.k.a. canape DATE:Saturday, February 24, 2007 at 5:45:00 PM EST *sniff* Thanks guys. Again with awesomeness. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR:

Andria DATE:Monday, February 26, 2007 at 10:51:00 AM EST I remember that day. 20 weeks- I would have been half-way. Three weeks away from the baby being viable. That's what I kept thinking. I remember feeling so depressed, so empty- I would have done anything to have that flutter of life back. I wondered what I would feel when my due date came along- and, when it did, I was numb. I've had three miscarriages, but the first is the one that I dwell on. The one that I know would be 15 weeks old now.
Hang in there. Scream and vent all you want... it helps. ----- --------